Good Things Never Last

He really did his best to make me jealous. Though it hurts, and it really hard to handle such pain, I just have to accept it because I don’t want to suffer in the near future. I always believe that feelings don’t easily die because we keep on feeding them with memories that’s why it’s hard to move on. The more I get too close with him, the more I felt the pain inside my heart because I know that it won’t last long. It’s just a temporary happiness and that it would end soon. We cannot have everything in our life because death and change are constant above the earth. I know it’s unfair to use another person to cover up what I really feet. I also know that’s its wrong. But when will I be able to move on with my life by just doing nothing? Would it be good if I will just watch them so sweet and act like nothing’s wrong? I’m not a rock as much as I am not dumb and numb enough to realize things out from certain situation. I really need to have a diversion for my feelings. But what can I do? He became a part of my life. Until now, I really didn’t know if what’s with him that I’m acting this way. Sometimes, I can say that he’s not worth for all those tears and sufferings that I have offered to him. Maybe I easily trust to someone. Easily affected by the way they act towards me. I cannot blame myself because it is the same thing I want them to do with me. I want to be trusted. But they are ruining my self esteem. Funny. I don’t know. Yeah. How can I lose someone who never been mine at the very beginning? The best part of being in love is when you just love a person and be happy about it. Even if that person can never be yours, even if you know you can’t last forever.  That’s the true essence of LOVE. Sometimes, I just smile upon realizing these things.  Somehow, I’m just glad that I already felt something like this even if I’m just young. There are lesson learned in every mistakes which is good on my part because I can apply it to different situations. It’s not about winning someone; it’s not about owning a relationship. It’s just about being happy because you know you didn’t take way someone from anybody you just love and love unselfishly. I am willing to be your sweetest stranger forever if that’s the only thing to ease the pain I felt today and forever.

You never know what you have until you lose it, and once you lose it, you can never get it back.