Cherished Friends

God must have known there would be times
We'd need a word of cheer,
Someone to praise a triumph
Or brush away a tear.

He must have known we'd need to share
The joy of "little things"
In order to appreciate
The happiness life brings.

I think He knew our troubled hearts
Would sometimes throb with pain,
At trials and misfortunes,
Or goals we can't attain.

He knew we'd need the comfort
Of an understanding heart
To give us strength and courage
To make a fresh, new start.

He knew we'd need companionship,
Unselfish... lasting... true,
And so God answered the heart's great need
With cherished friends... like you!

“A friend is someone who understands your past, believes in your future, and accepts you just the way you are.”

LOST

I don’t know if you’re pushing me away or pulling me closer
I don’t know where I stand
I don’t know what you want from me
Or if you care at all

Your words lash out and hurt
Then lovingly draw me in
I don’t know what you want from me
Do you want this to end

Don’t turn tables
Or place this on me
Just come out and tell me
What it is you want

I can’t read minds 
I don’t know where I stand
Are you pushing me away
Or are you going to finally let me in..

Secretly Loving You

I am in love with a guy who doesn't know it
And that's because I am afraid to show it
He would get upset if he knew how i felt
And even more for the pain I've dealt

If I told him our friendship would have to end
Then I couldn't even have him as a friend
I get so jealous, he likes her instead
I hate how this all goes through my head

If only you'd let me taste your sweet kiss
Maybe then I would know about all this
I could know for a fact that this was true
But now all I can say is that I love you

So please give me just one chance
To show you true, sweet, romance
I owe it to you, for all that you do
You make me happy, mad, and even sad too.

If only you'd look through my smile
And saw that my love for you was in denial
My friends all know I still love you
But one question, "do you?"

My heart is so happy whenever your near,
But when your gone my eye gives a tear
My sadness for you is all so true
Only because I truly love you

So if you are my friend, at least one bit
You won't mind that one little slit
The one I told you, and just you about
I told you because I trusted you without a doubt.

You turned your back on me and turned it into you,
Which made me do what I had to do,
You put me through so much pain,
Your pains putting me down the wrong lane.

Some how this pain keeps reeling me in
You say you don't want me, but you let my love unfasten.
You let it unfasten into your soul.
Which makes our friendship less dull

I want you to know, you brighten my day.
Even when you stop just to say hey
Your smile so bright, is what keeps me going,
Which keeps my love for you showing

So please open up your eyes
Before I start telling those pointless lies
My love for you will never end
Even if I am only your friend

I want you to be happy,
I only wish it could be with me,
Because even though I'm not "higher class"
I'm not something you should just pass.

I have feelings just as much as you,
And just like you, I'm human too.
Once we get out of high school
It won't matter if we were cool

So show all your friends the real guy I know
Because as of right now I'm not letting go
Not letting go of that great guy I met
Because once I met him my heart was set

My heart was set on the guy of my dreams
Or so now that's what it seems
Please forgive me if I start to cry
But to me you are my one and only guy

You can make me smile with just one hi
And make me feel sad with that same goodbye
My stomach gets those silly butterflies
When ever i look deep into your soft brown eyes

For when we go our separate ways,
These are of course my sadder days,
For not being your friend is the worst thought of all,
It makes my heart just sink and fall

For you are the boy that makes my heart skip that beat
And without you I seem incomplete
So bare with me now, as I am only your friend
As I try to get this feeling to end.

If only you would give me that one chance,
To show you true sweet romance,
For then you'd know my love is real,
But now I will just have to deal.

Well that's all that my heart has got to say
But promise me now on this day
That you will at least be my friend,
My friend forever until the end.

Sometimes your brain gets in the way of what your heart really wants to say.

Good Things Never Last

He really did his best to make me jealous. Though it hurts, and it really hard to handle such pain, I just have to accept it because I don’t want to suffer in the near future. I always believe that feelings don’t easily die because we keep on feeding them with memories that’s why it’s hard to move on. The more I get too close with him, the more I felt the pain inside my heart because I know that it won’t last long. It’s just a temporary happiness and that it would end soon. We cannot have everything in our life because death and change are constant above the earth. I know it’s unfair to use another person to cover up what I really feet. I also know that’s its wrong. But when will I be able to move on with my life by just doing nothing? Would it be good if I will just watch them so sweet and act like nothing’s wrong? I’m not a rock as much as I am not dumb and numb enough to realize things out from certain situation. I really need to have a diversion for my feelings. But what can I do? He became a part of my life. Until now, I really didn’t know if what’s with him that I’m acting this way. Sometimes, I can say that he’s not worth for all those tears and sufferings that I have offered to him. Maybe I easily trust to someone. Easily affected by the way they act towards me. I cannot blame myself because it is the same thing I want them to do with me. I want to be trusted. But they are ruining my self esteem. Funny. I don’t know. Yeah. How can I lose someone who never been mine at the very beginning? The best part of being in love is when you just love a person and be happy about it. Even if that person can never be yours, even if you know you can’t last forever.  That’s the true essence of LOVE. Sometimes, I just smile upon realizing these things.  Somehow, I’m just glad that I already felt something like this even if I’m just young. There are lesson learned in every mistakes which is good on my part because I can apply it to different situations. It’s not about winning someone; it’s not about owning a relationship. It’s just about being happy because you know you didn’t take way someone from anybody you just love and love unselfishly. I am willing to be your sweetest stranger forever if that’s the only thing to ease the pain I felt today and forever.

You never know what you have until you lose it, and once you lose it, you can never get it back.

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All my life, I thought of love as some kind of voluntary enslavement. Well, that's a lie.

Freedom only exist when love is present. The person who gives him or herself wholly, the person who feels freest, is the person who loves most wholeheartedly. And the person who loves wholeheartedly is free. I am convinced that no one loses anyone, because no one owns everyone.

That is the true experience of freedom: having the most important thing in the world without owning it.

My heart might be bruised, but it will recover and see the beauty of life once more. It happened before it will happen again I'm sure. When someone else leaves, it's because someone else is about to arrive. I'll find love again. I promised.. </3

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I always think that every challenge is an opportunity for a relationship to grow. It's not about having a smooth relationship. It's just that, it's about how two people team up when things go rough. Any good relationship needs work. Take a pause and examine why you're holding on to a person. If it's generally encouraging and uplifting, if you're growing for the better without being turned into someone you're not, then GO.! Do everything you can to make it work. Everything changes and some good things that are just aren't meant to be. When we force something that's not meant to be, it can bring a lot of pain and misery...